Conversion of St. Paul

Who knows what really happened to St. Paul on the way to Damascus? Ages ago, I read a commentary which hypothesized that Paul was overwhelmed by his anger with the “Christian sect” and with Jesus, for that matter. It was this obsession that fired him inside out. Hence the “missionary journey” to Damascus to seek out and imprison the followers of “the way” (cf Acts 9:1-20). But ironically, this anger also became the fertile ground for his “conversion” or what we call now, his “Christian calling.” Paul was obsessed with Jesus, and this determined all his thoughts, actions, plans, dreams, etc.
I am reminded of the words of Fr. Pedro Arrupe, former Superior General of the Jesuits. Perhaps it could be a “modern way” of imagining what happened to Paul in Damascus.

Nothing is more practical than finding God
that is, falling in love in a quite absolute final way.
What you are in love with,
what seizes your imagination,
will affect everything.
It will decide what will get you out of bed in the morning,
what you will do with your evenings,
how you will spend your weekends,
what you will read,
who you know,
what breaks your heart,
what amazes you with joy and gratitude.
Fall in love,
stay in love
and it will decide everything.

Jesuits Today

So many things are going on here in Rome this time, but I guess there are two things “catching” international curiosity: one, the “intolerant” (to say the least) attitude of some professors and students in La Sapienza University in Rome to the point of refusing the visit of Pope Benedict XVI last Thursday, and the Pope’s response of “va bene...(okay, visit cancelled!); two, the ongoing 35th General Congregation of the Society of Jesus, with the latest news today – the election of the successor of St. Ignatius of Loyola – in the person of Fr. Adolfo Nicolás. The new Superior General of the Jesuits is Spanish by birth, but “purified” in Asia, specifically in Japan, Korea and the Philippines. In fact, before his election to the office, he was the President of the Jesuit Conference of East Asia and Oceania.
I found these interesting insights of Fr. Nicolas about inculturating the charism of St. Ignatius in Asia, if you are curious to know how the man "thinks."
And more, you can click here if you want to hear his hopes during this ongoing General Chapter. I love the last part!
Personally, I'm grateful the Pope accepted him (the Pope needs to confirm the election of the Jesuit General before it could be announced!). With the choice of this capable and enthusiastic missionary, we can somehow guess what (and where!) are the priorities of the Jesuits in this millennium! They may not be this Pope's priorities per se -- but then it could be a good pastoral strategy: with Fr. Nicolas and his Jesuits, he has both the "west" and the "east" taken care of!

Blessing for Equilibrium

This is my prayer today for myself and for all my friends:


Like the joy of the sea coming home to shore,
may the music of laughter break through your soul.

As the wind wants to make everything dance,
may your gravity be lightened by grace.

Like the freedom of the monastery bell,
may clarity of mind make your eyes smile.

As water takes whatever shape it is in,
so free may you be about who you become.

As silence smiles on the other side of what’s said,
may a sense of irony give you perspective.

As time remains free of all that it frames,
may fear or worry never put you in chains.

May your prayer of listening deepen enough
to hear in the distance the laughter of God.

Creative Risk

I just finished reading a very interesting article in the double issue of The Tablet (Dec. 22/29, 2007) regarding the risks taken by artists while creating their works and developing their careers. The author, M.S. Roberts, comments extensively on the work of British sculptor Andy Goldsworthy whose works are characterized by ultimate risks – “laying his creations open to the ravages of weather and time, allowing them to be changed and even destroyed” (see a sample of his work in the image). Roberts attests that Goldsworthy has also unphotographed works which waste away unwitnessed by anyone except the artist. Ironic, isn’t it? What I know is that most artists want their works to endure, to remain as monuments or documents of their greatness. But that’s how it is with A.G. That's part of his uniqueness. Reading through the artist’s intentions, Roberts intuits that it is perhaps the very vulnerability in Goldsworthy’s works that renders it powerful and beautiful.
Going further into the sphere of spirituality, Roberts extends his reflection to the mystery of Christmas. (Sorry, but you have to bear with me. I “close” my Christmas season, as most Filipinos do, on the Third Sunday of January – the Feast of the Sto. Niño!) What is the secret of the durability of Christmas? How does it withstand all the controversies that come forth from generation to generation? Here is how Roberts puts it: “Whatever cultural noise and gloss is put in its way, it remains rooted in the story of Bethlehem, the poor family, the miraculous birth. And its power comes from the conscious and willing vulnerability at its heart. The creator and sustainer of all that is, delivers himself into his free creation as one of the least powerful individuals in that world, as a poor refugee baby. Now, that is creative vulnerability. In fact, given what the stakes were, it’s fair to call it true creative risk.”

Baptism

To prepare ourselves for the liturgy of Sunday, I'd like to share this reflection which I just received from Sr. M. Necitas Derama, our PDDM sister based in Hong Kong.

This coming Sunday, the celebration of the Baptism of the Lord gives me 3 thoughts very much related to what I am going through these months: kindled spiritual awareness, obedience anchored in God, opened vistas of self-knowledge.
Reflecting deeply on the grace of baptism, I become aware of my being unique and special before God. Such spiritual awareness is kindled through events and persons God sent into my life especially during crucial moments. My responses to situations allow me to see my God-given capacity to be creative. This I see in the rich expression of my heart and hopefully in action, a giftedness that really makes me feel how valuable I am before God, to others and in relation to myself. Unique, creative, valuable are self-definitions which come to be unfolded day by day before my eyes.
Anchored in God, I wish to be open to this disclosure of my identity as his handmaid and bride. I know that this life-giving advocacy will be tested through life as Jesus our Teacher himself experienced.
As I move on in this direction of tests and temptation I trust that I will have the consolation of tasting now and then the seeing of the light and the hearing of his voice: "You are my beloved and loved". This will engrave deeper self knowledge in me that will hopefully be my guide to move on in the difficult moments of God's spousal with me.
The death experience of my sister Claudia last December has given me meaning of our day to day journey of spousal with God. I consider that what she went through in her life, with its innumerable pains was areal day to day spousal with her God. Hence, I saw her passing away as departure for her definitive"wedding banquet with God" so affirmed by the bridal gown she wore during her funeral. For me and the rest of the family, that made a lot of sense as we confronted our loss of her; it also made our Christmas more meaningful.
May we continue to prepare and help each other in this day to day preparation for our final wedding banquet with God who has already espoused us in his Son Jesus through the grace of baptism.

Risk to Love!

While in some parts of the world, Christmas is just starting (cf Orthodox Christians), we of the Roman Catholic tradition have started putting away our decors and have returned to life’s normal pace. In itself, our liturgical calendar says that Christmas season ends with the Baptism of the Lord (13th of January this year). But the truth is that with the celebration of the Epiphany, all feasts go away with it.
Here in Italy, Epiphany is associated not so much with the Three Kings as in most parts of the world, but with the “befana” (= the good witch who distributes gifts to good children, a feminine counterpart of Santa Claus, actually). So yesterday, when the “befana” passed by, she took away with her all the feasts of the season!
In the Gospel today, we already read the beginning of Jesus’ public ministry.
From Nazareth, he has moved to and settled in Capernaum where he began teaching, preaching, healing and forming new disciples.
I asked myself: if I’d like to associate myself to the mission of Jesus my Teacher, how do I face this “new year” of my life? From where do I want to move and to where? Our priest celebrant gave me an insight, which was also reinforced by an article which I read briefly this morning.
I’d like to move away from my “settled ways of thinking and my prejudices” and move towards more “risk-taking” for the cause of the Kingdom. The deeper I reflect on the mystery of the Incarnation, the more I marvel at the “risk” God has taken in becoming human! He has actually taken the risk of loving – loving to the end.
Timothy Radcliffe, commenting on Runaway World, a book by A. Giddens regarding Globalization and how it is reshaping our lives, affirms that the common view about religion is that it is a refuge from risk! Perhaps it is true to some extent. But our experience also says that religious people (like us) live in constant risk. Come to think of it, at least in this society where I am in and where the existence of God is continuously being questioned, we “risk” everything to proclaim our faith. In concrete terms, this means, we risk to love as Christ loves. Radcliffe describes it thus: the risk to live for others who, perhaps, don’t even want to have anything to do with me; the risk to live the fullness of truth which I would actually never comprehend completely; the risk to leave myself totally emptied by my thirst for God so that I could allow God’s Reign to fill me up. This is the greatest risk and nonetheless the greatest certainty that we could ever have.
May God help me live up to this challenge; may this new year's resolution be blessed by our Lord!